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2011-07-08T01:46:00.002+08:00

I have totally no idea on what to post.

I think girls with pierced tongues and a back tattoo are pretty hot hahahaha
but most importantly..... if she can satisfy my stomach, that would be the best damned thing ever hahahahahahahaha -_______________-

2011-06-15T15:26:00.001+08:00

Life = Bullshit. It still revolves around woman and money that's all (and a little bit of education). I have nothing much to say so yeah :\

2011-06-04T03:34:00.000+08:00

lemme be the one that shines with you and we can slide awayyyyyy

2011-05-19T02:39:00.002+08:00

Have been skipping school frequently :\ Yeah a pretty bad sign (plus the fact that i actually didn't follow my new year resolutions). It seems like i can't really muster all the energy for school but yet, for other unnecessary stuffs -_________- Things like getting a vehicle license (but seriously i can't wait for it man) should be prioritized 2nd instead of first. As usual, shit happens and this time round, it ain't bout' chicks but money money. It's been flowing out from my pocket faster than what i'd expected sigh. Yes, i need a job urgently. Speaking bout' money, i think town is getting more and more boring :\ Always the same old stuff, saw someone looking like you (and you'll be like HEY CHUNWEI *turns around* OPS SORRY WRONG PERSON). It's been repeating and repeating and repeating but i have to really put in more effort in my schoolwork (attendance wise)
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Let's look at the brighter side of life.
Today was exceptionally meaningful. Why, becos' i didn't spend my time just sitting around smacking houseflies or staring at the ceiling. Well i was pretty proud of myself cos i somehow managed to play songs from Blink 182 (whoa i thought i'd never do it). Ok basically Jamming -> Basketball. Jamming was fun, no doubt and for a amateur like me, i never thought i could actually play finish an entire song (wasn't that fantastic but somehow manageable hehehe) It's time to get myself bigger in size by........ EATING AND SLEEPING ON TIME. Tick tock it's 2.54am and i guess i should get some sleep. O wait anyway lesson's starting at 3 so why not... Hehe.

Goodnight world and i really do miss hugging someone :(

2011-05-11T03:24:00.000+08:00

2011-04-29T04:12:00.004+08:00

Kinda think of it, what my friend said was pretty true. I'm not really good with words so yeah, i'll try to explain briefly.

"What we are missing is actually the memories, rather than the person that we had all those wonderful times with."

Well, i find it really true cos those memories did haunt and i somehow got drowned in it hahahaha. The reason why i didn't like going home at night was because i fuckin' hate spending the night alone. The worst part is when you can't fucking fall asleep and you start reminiscing all these things. I don't really think so much during the daytime but once the sun falls, sigh and plus the fact that every single one has their own life to live on :\ This can't go on forever, i'll definitely find a way

The funeral ended. It was quite depressing when the van starts moving and everyone was crying, wishing that they could have done more when he's alive. My mom was so upset that she nearly fainted :\ Well it was very obvious that she loves him a lot especially when she took so much care for him and one of my aunty. I have no comments for the others... There's actually nothing much for him to regret so hopefully he can rest in peace. I sincerely hope that he will still be my grandfather in my next life, that is if i got the luck.

Haven't been attending school regularly so i guess it's time for me to sleep. It's fuckin' 4.34am and i have yet to pray Tai Shui. Hopefully tomorrow's evening.

Goodnight world :(

2011-04-25T01:40:00.002+08:00

He was a great man, really. He brought up my mum and aunties single handedly and i can't imagine he's the only sole breadwinner for one big family (total of 9). Respect to the max, i will never forget you.
RIP Grandpa, i will always remember you.

Come to think of it, it really hurts to know how you moved on so easily. Been so long but i really can't let go of you at all lol. Part of me still wants you so fuckin' much. Sigh, hope you're happy with whatever you're doing. Luv you :(

2011-04-14T04:02:00.002+08:00

It's kinda sweet to see couples all around, loving each other wholeheartedly and etc etc. Hahahaha yeah i'm so fuckin' jealous. Still, it reminds me of the MV of Build To Last - Meelee ;)

I have this thought that (correct me if i'm wrong) money really does make a person happy (for me personally though). Wait, i can't really put it in this manner cos', okay what i meant was it really makes a person's living so much easier. Having a car, bringing your wife/family out for a dinner at some well known restaurants or even excursions. Having good meals, not giving a fuck about the bills, kids and wife buy whatever they want (but moderation please). Wonderful, isn't it?

Okay okay, i'm just bullshitting around. To be honest, i'm really envious of those boys who are rich, have cars to bring their girlfriends around, bring them to some good restaurant to have good meals, pay for whatever they want and so much more. Yeah yeah i know, everyone says these cliche lines over and over again - "Those little handmade stuffs meant much more", "It's the thought that counts." I know i know, but still it makes the living so much easier, right? I swear when i grow up, I'm gonna give a comfortable life to my parents and my kids as well.

Well..... It wasn't such a bad thing cos' all the more I'm gonna be more independent hahaha.

Reality check... I'm a week away from 18 and i'm so excited (Not 'bout the celebration but the bike hehehe) I think imma fucking failure, seriously. 18, not studying well just to repay my parents and being sucha' disobedient kid all the time. Not handsome, not rich, not buffed, not a good person, not even able to support myself, has literally nothing, spendthrift. I've really got a crippling low self esteem issue but oh well, i'm here to pour out whatever is stuck in my weak heart.

Sigh, goodnight world.

2011-03-30T15:16:00.003+08:00

UP AND DOWN UP AND DOWN UP AND DOWN HERE WE GOOOOOOOOO.
SCREWED UP ROUTINE I GOT YEAH. ALWAYS REACHING HOME @ 2 IN THE MORNING, SLEEPING WHEN MY DAD'S AWAKE FOR HIS WORK. WAKES UP WHEN MY DAD REACHES HOME FROM WORK. GOES OUT TILL 2 OR 3 IN THE MORNING AGAIN HAHAHAHA.
我真的是不孝子
CANT STOP THE MONEY FLOWING OUT. GOING BANKRUPT SOON AHHHHHH (PARTIALLY IT'S BECUZ OF FOOD AND YOU KNOW THE OTHER ONE ^^)

K, it's 3.20pm - time for my brunch. BEEF NOODLE I'M COMINGGGGGGG

2011-03-22T03:08:00.002+08:00

I think the world is really ending. The storm that happened few hours ago was fucking terrible hahaha. My birthday is coming in about a month and that's when i can finally get my fucking license \m/ oh yeah. Won't be writing much stuff cos there's nothing left to pen down anymore so goodnight and sleep tight.
PS I have yet to get a job and how am i gonna get money for my bike and license??!?!

2011-03-11T00:10:00.003+08:00

Little things like these actually made me feel fucking stressed up. Serious shit, serious shit... Sigh why must the ending be like this... :\
Haven't been sleeping well for the past 4 days like whut the fuck. Ah it's okay cos i pretty much enjoyed myself these few days.
Time for hibernation, goodnight

2011-03-07T01:27:00.003+08:00

WHY WHY WHY
SOMETIMES I REALLY CAN'T HELP BUT TO BLAME MYSELF FOR ALL THESE THINGS
I KEPT ON ASKING, WHY BUT THERE'S NO ANSWERS TOWARDS THIS QUESTION
SIGH, SERIOUSLY MAN
WHY THIS FUCKED UP FEELING WHY
WHY WHY MOTHER FUCKING WHY

2011-03-05T19:25:00.001+08:00

Cut my hair, sold my bag, finished my project, holidays, sleeping so much more everyday. Life's definitely awesome

2011-02-23T01:24:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,
it's been some time since i've written something on this white blank space. Life's awesome yay. I came to realise that all these while, I'm only having a meal or 2 every single day. No wonder I'm that fucking skinny but i did eat a lot for that very meal i have everyday :\ Starting from today onwards I'm not gonna skip any means wooohooo cos i seriously wanna grow some meat LOL. Today (only today) i had 3 meals hahahahaha. K kinda ridiculous... Don't take it to the heart when others criticize you cos you jolly well should know what you are doing even the others don't believe you. Yes, life is awesome. 2 more weeks and imma bout to flyyyyyyyyy. Oh btw, i STILL find life meaningless... School > Relax > Home > School and this lame cycle continues for 3 years. Sigh, howwwwwww meaningless. K i'm hungry again should i go out and have my supper? It's 1.35am but i'm super reluctant to walk to 848 :\ Oh well, no one's gonna answer me anyway hahaha so fuck yeah, goodnight world and goodnight diary :> (sound so gay hahahahah wtv)

2011-02-19T14:39:00.000+08:00

PIERCE THE VEILS - CARAPHERNELIA

2011-02-09T01:08:00.002+08:00

Why do i feel like i actually have the chance, but i blew it all away?
Why do i feel so empty every now and then?
Why do i wanna sleep forever and never wake up?
Why do i find life so meaningless?
为什么................ Sigh

2011-02-02T14:58:00.003+08:00

Happy chinese new year! Won't be blogging much cos i'll be busy gambling away yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy. I don't know why but at times i really felt that life is really meaningless. All we do is eat, sleep and school/work. All of us are aiming for a certain degree/diploma/place but ultimately, it voices down to the most powerful thing in the world, MONEY. I admit that when it comes to money i would get pretty sensitive bout' it and honestly, i have no answer to it. Ah seriously, i have to quickly find some meaning in life or i think i'm gonna end up regretting when i'm about to die. I hope i'd get to save a large sum of money so that i will be able to travel around the world. Oh yeah, i would and will definitely try bungee jumping, sky diving, scuba diving woohooo. 140 down, 110 to go

2011-01-26T01:36:00.002+08:00

Been watching 'My date with a vampire I' these few days. Watch it all over again cos i've forgotten 70% of the story plus the fact that i'm trying to improve my cantonese :S I'm still at episode 11 -______________- slow poke. Haha CNY's coming and this signifies the good food and money woohooooo. After CNY i wouldn't be as broke as how i used to be :D Went to town for these past 2 weeks (LOL) but what's the point of walking around when i'm so broke -.= I'm still aiming for that particular shirt at Furmuse hehehe. I'm still thinking that 200bucks wasn't well spent :\ Oh well, furmuse shirt here i come!!!!!!! Oh wait, thinking bout cny reminds me of steamboat yumyum i'm so hungry right now i can eat a cow right now mooooooo. And the finale, MAHJONG woohoooooooo i think i'm having some mental breakdown hehehehe shirt, creditors, mahjong, steamboat and i'll be free after cny hehehehehe goodnight worldddddddddddd

心酸, 真的很放不下 :\

2011-01-24T00:50:00.002+08:00

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so i will not hide
it's time try
anything to be with you
all my life i've waited
this is true

2011-01-21T01:53:00.002+08:00

SLEEPLESS NIGHTS. I JUST WANNA GET THIS PHASE OVER AND DONE... HOW AM I GONNA' SURVIVE... 这次真的要 JIAT HONG LIAO.

When you told me that you loved me
were those just words
You can't tell me you don't need me
and I know that hurts
'Cause I'm looking at your picture
'Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day
You and me will have one more shot
Ryan Cabrera - Photo

2011-01-18T00:45:00.002+08:00

I'm still can't let go anything, what a wuss i am hahaha. Fancy me trying to relieve some good ol' memories but yeah, it's been long gone and it'll never ever be back. So heart-wrenching... Heads up bro, you have already been kicked out of the mind long ago, why bother getting so depressed

2011-01-12T02:11:00.003+08:00

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbours think i'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

At night when the stars light on my room
I sit by myself talking to the moon
Try to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too
Oh, am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?

I'm feeling like i'm famous, the talk of the town
They say i've gone mad
Yeah, i've gone mad
But they don't know
What I know
Cause when the sun goes down, someone's talking back
They're talking back
Do you ever hear me calling?

2011-01-08T01:53:00.002+08:00

Yeap, still no resolutions till now LOL. I will just type out whatever i have in my mind now hehe

Study hard (which i don't know am i trying or not)
Get a bike
Work for money *KACHINGS*
Wrist to recover
Lesser quarrels
Quit it
Save up so i can buy many many stuff
Finish a book by every month
HOPEFULLY, HOPEFULLY, I GET FAT HAHAHAHHA

I was going through the saved messages that i used to have. Can't believe i just smiled just by reading them hahhahha, I was still hesitating whether should i delete them :\ Oh well, i did and fuck yeah, this is a brand new year so goodbye for now ;)

2011-01-02T02:17:00.003+08:00

Here we come, come with me
There's a world out there that we should see
Take my hands, close your eyes
With you right here Imma' rocketeer
Let's flyyyyyyyy
Up up here we go go
Up up here we go go
Let's flyyyyyyyy
Up up here we go go
When we stop nobody knows

Happy new year! Let's just forget every unhappy moments and live life to the fullest! I've yet to come out with a resolution for this year. Hopefully, something that i can keep up with instead of giving it up halfway through. Oh, i have to make it 'Resolutions' cos i have a few which i think it's a need. Firstly, everyone to be safe and sound and secondly, all of us sticking together. Will get back to you asap ;) Till then, ciaoooooooo

2010-12-27T02:48:00.002+08:00

Really, don't bother. What a big fucking fat joke hahahahahhahahaha. Man, that sentence was really fucked up please. C'mon, you can do it

DO DO DO YOU WANNA BE ON TOP OR THE BA-BA BOTTOM DON'T MAKE ME STOP COS I KNOW OH OH I'M LA LA IN LOVE WITH YOU GIRL I CAN'T STOP SINGING DO DO DO YOU WANNA SPEND THE NIGHT AND WAKE UH UH UP UNDER THE MORNING LIGHT COS I KNOW OH OH I'M IN LA LA LOVE WITH YOU GIRL YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH YEAHHHHHHHHHHH

2010-12-24T02:59:00.001+08:00

2010-12-23T01:45:00.002+08:00

Yet again, it's always the same isn't it? It's only right for me to feel pleasant to hear these kind of things, right? Never ending... But one thing for sure, the ending is pretty obvious and we all know that

2010-12-20T02:15:00.004+08:00

I'm very depressed over this pair ADIDAS RANSOM SHOES :( IF I GOT THE MONEY I'M SO GONNA GET IT :( :( :( BUT NONETHELESS I'M GONNA GET IT SOON HEEHEEHEE

Whoaaaa

2010-12-18T13:36:00.002+08:00

I've seen alot of unpleasant things. Oh well, i'm just gonna close both of my eyes; but i don't think this is the way to avoid the truth and arguments right?

2010-12-16T01:48:00.000+08:00

there's a million reasons for you to go but if you can find a reason to stay :(

2010-12-14T01:45:00.000+08:00

明天会更好，可是我从来没觉得好过

2010-12-11T13:46:00.003+08:00

Finally, got some time for myself already. Fucking hectic week i swear. Next week's gonna be another one :\ I'm still having a very bad cough and my throat is killing me. Lol i hope it's not that. Anyway, it's gonna be the last week before the semester break. I'm so gonna go for a damn check-up. Have been coughing for nearly a month :O What if i'm only left with a year to live? Who's gonna take care of my parents? What if no one remembers me? So many what if's? I'm not a good grandson, now that my granny is diagnosed with cancer, i don't even have time to visit her. Never mind, next week will be the last. Actually, i don't believe in 'don't have time'. It's still a matter of making an effort to have time for the other party. Ah yaya whatever it's still morning so have a pleasant day ahead everyone.

2010-12-06T01:27:00.002+08:00

Coughing terribly like an old man before i sleep every single night. 这样咳下去，不死都奇怪.

There's this pasar malam around my area. It was around 11 plus, my friend and his girlfriend just jumped in to one of the funfair's ride. She was sitting on this swing while my friend was trying to push it (cos there was no power) She was laughing so happily while he, himself was enjoying too. How sweet, i'm really green with envy. It's the littlest things that make like great, isn't it?

2010-12-05T01:57:00.001+08:00

GONER IMMA GONER I'M FUCKING BROKE RIGHT NOW. HOW THE FUCK DID I SPEND FINISH 500 BUCKS?!?!?!

2010-11-29T13:53:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK BABY WOOHOO, HAVENT SLEPT WELL FOR THE PAST 3 NIGHTS AND I SKIPPED SCHOOL AGAIN (TODAY) HAHAHAAHHA.

Till then, i'll still be waiting :)

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2010-11-23T01:32:00.003+08:00

I just recalled all the pranks that i've pulled on others. Fucked up, i was. Hahaha nevertheless i laughed so hard whenever i did it. Yeah i know i know i'd not want when others do that to me too but oh well, i'm still gonna do it (i have my limits though). Why? Becos i'm an selfish asshole ;) I realized how sensitive i was to others' opinion of me but it seems like i don't give a flying fuck anymore. Yeah yeah karma, i'm coughing like an old man/out my lungs (again). Cw's seriously a fucking wuss hahahaha loser. Oh well, goodnight world :>
(my nooooooooooooooooooooose is so blocked right now !#!%$@)

2010-11-20T02:13:00.002+08:00

YESAH i'm finally able to type with both of my hands! Anw 6 more days woohooo. School is super boring and a check up on wednesday again :O What's up with the heartache stories everywhere? Sigh. HP7 TMR WOOHOO THIS IS EVEN MORE EXCITING RATHER THAN ANTICIPATING THE ARRIVAL OF HOLIDAY HAHAHAHA CHALET CHALET CHALET *MOE MOE MOE* I'M THINK I'M HAVING DEPRESSION THAT'S WHY I'M ACTING IN THIS MANNER RIGHT NOW. MY ARMS ARE SUPER WEAK AND I'M BREAKING OUT COLD SWEAT. I THINK I'M SO HUNGRY THAT MY STOMACH IS ACTUALLY CALLING OUT FOR MAGGIE HAHAHA. OH I THINK MY HEART IS ACHING RIGHT NOW, SO BADLY. TOO BAD, MEDICINE HELPS NUTS HAHAHA. FUCK THIS SOCIETY TIME FOR MAGGIE

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet

Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me

I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

2010-11-19T01:38:00.001+08:00

SWEE LAH 7 MORE DAYS

SIGH

2010-11-16T00:28:00.007+08:00

this shit never get old
head over heels in luv with this girl
really meaningless :\

2010-11-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

2010-11-13T01:28:00.002+08:00

Lousy week, looking forward to weekends every now and then. Skipped school for a week for no good excuse, fractured hand and stupid cast. Gotta focus or i'm gonna lose out so much more for next week. No sports for months, spent 120 in a week (wtf have i been spending on?!), homework not done. This is so depressing. It's okay, i'm gonna meet the light soon. Chalet chalet chalet chalet *moe moe moe* I wanna swim, basketball and get wasted. Lucky GT and MR are over here to accompany me every night. I WANNA GET THIS FUCKING PHASE OVER AND DONE WITH

2010-11-11T18:29:00.002+08:00

Don't speak as if 'm the only one at fault, you yourself should clearly know what have you done too. Whatever it is, i can't be bothered anymore. I just hope you don't disappoint anyone anymore with your selfish actions

2010-11-11T02:42:00.003+08:00

Yes glad to hear you're hating me. Hope in the near future you'd not find another lousy guy like me. Thanks for all these while. Be it happy, sad, tears, worrying, paranoid, arguments, long chats, sleepless nights, assumptions but i never regretted loving you for once. This is the last time, really. I thought we'd even be together. Hah, wishful thinking of mine. I will never forget you. My apologies, goodbye and goodnight

HATE ME

2010-11-09T12:38:00.000+08:00

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

2010-11-08T02:57:00.001+08:00

And please don't tell me that I'm dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you
If I roll over
When it's over
I'll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories
We made love by the ocean
As the waves crashed around you
Sunsets never were so bright
And the skies never so blue
You opened up into my arms
And we laughed as I held you
I'll never go back to Georgia,
Not at least 'till I have to
Down and to the left

2010-11-08T02:49:00.001+08:00

I fucking head going to town and not getting anything. TOMS shoes next

2010-11-05T02:40:00.003+08:00

School's damn boring for these few days. I fell asleep during many lectures -,- Have to start sleeping early every now and then, sleeping almost at 5 every single day. Whoa dark rings are getting more obvious. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha still looking forward to chalet yeah baby yeah.

Me: Eh darren, you know i can stop breathing for 4 mins?
D: Huh, how is that even possible?!?
Me: C'mon let's try. Ok tell you what, take out your iphone and start timing
D: Ok, 5 4 3 2 1 START
*silent but i'm breathing all along LOL*
*after 4 mins*
Me: whoa that was hell man, really
D: WTF HOW YOU DO IT
-,-
Power ah darren, you number 1 LOL

2010-11-04T11:47:00.002+08:00

The moment i see you, so much memories rushed into my mind. Just talking for a few seconds and it's already killing me. Ah, how depressing, how depressing... Can i cry?

2010-10-30T02:36:00.001+08:00

Fuck yeah we're riding ol' school.
Haha, i'm very sure that karma's gonna hit us soon :O Oh well one step at a time LOL

2010-10-28T01:25:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna quit it for good. I got so sick and tired of it already & it's expensive :\ The poster says we get to save 4k per year O.O Swimming on every wednesday! YES WEDNESDAY i luv wednesday :)

2010-10-27T01:25:00.004+08:00

I remember we were supposed to paint the wall with our hand prints. Being a mischievous boy, i painted both of my hands hahahaha. Oh, i find myself having a hard time cleaning them off. That was when you came in and patiently wipe off all the paints from my hands. I don't have much memories other than that. Haha, how reminiscing

2010-10-26T00:24:00.002+08:00

Going die already *cough cough*. Sound like some weak old man over here heehee. Should i skip school tmrrrrrrr cos i have an mcccccccccc and my throat is like stabbing me with its butter knifeeeeee. The doctor in polyclinic barely even checked what's wrong with me and straightaway prescribed the medicine :\ I'm not there for the mc, i'm there for the medicine cos i'm broke -.- Storyboarding (gonna continue watching spiderman2) and asian cinema (featuring our very own local films) Seems fun but i'm really dying *cough cough* Anyway, I'm done, that's it

2010-10-25T01:39:00.001+08:00

I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

2010-10-24T00:56:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to my dear friend, Ipod. Thanks for always being there for me when i'm alone. I can't express out how much i need you everyday. If it wasn't for you i might have died a hundred times over and over again during my journey. I'm sorry for dropping you for countless times but you know i still adore you as always.
I sound like some autistic kid over here hehe but honestly speaking, i think i am. I talk to myself, talk to the wall, talk to my books and even my phone (when i'm not on the line with anybody) Boring Saturday. I can't wait for the chalet :S It's like a month away but i'm so hyped up right now :> Yay my bro just got back from Australia and i'm not gonna be alone for... the next week i suppose. Lazy to bathe or rather, i'm freezing in this weather right now. KILLERS FOR TONIGHT YAY. Stumbled upon this song, "Just A Dream" Nelly. Good song. GOODNIGHT WORLD

ps: GET HIM TO GREEK IS A GOOD MOVIE. I LUV HOW RUSSEL BRAND ACTS IN THE MOVIE HAHAHA

2010-10-22T20:44:00.002+08:00

we're thinking we would never be apart,
with your name tattooed across my heart

I'm starting to stir up alot of interest for my course :> The fact that i love movies got me more interested in it (but i wasn't really paying attention to all the little details and yadayada) Hopefully i will have done well for this semester to bring that sickening GPA up. Maths was super easy today omfgwtfbbq but the surprising thing was that i actually paid attention instead of sleeping :> It wasn't easy for me to clear all the rubbish in my brain at the point of time :\ If i got a daughter i'd name her Wednesday :> (from The Addams Family) I thought it was a pretty cool name for a girl LOL. Friday night and imma head out right now! Ciao dear diary

2010-10-20T23:44:00.003+08:00

Should i even join them for the band competition? I think i'll feel so loserish when i'm on the stage or i had the beat wrong :B Ahhhhh how. 2 days of school (or rather 3) were really boring, movies after movies but i think this semester is gonna be very fun :) Btw i slept during some lecture and i drooled alot omfg i'm so tired i think i'm gonna sleep now. I'm not gonna waste my timeeeeeeee

2010-10-20T03:19:00.001+08:00

People don't even give a SHIT, what for trying so hard chanchunwei

2010-10-19T20:22:00.003+08:00

Have you ever got this feeling where... every single thing that you see is moving in slow motion, you hear no noises and you feel very tired. I experienced this yesterday while working. It was really... relaxing i suppose as if i'm able to levitate anytime. Weird experience btw.

2010-10-15T02:54:00.002+08:00

Is it nonsensical for me to have all these negative thoughts? I'm so hungry i wanna eat stingray but i'm sick. I'm gonna voice it out one day

2010-10-13T01:17:00.005+08:00

Dear diary, life hasn't been that great (except with the fact that i've bought something that i've been eye-ing for a very long time) This year sucks, so many quarrels here and there and plus the fact that i've still a debt to clear. Among all, you're the closest to me. Why are you even so petty bout such things? It doesn't mean that when i give you guys a happier side of me, you guys can simply climb over my head and start to yada yada. I myself have 101 things to trouble about but i choose not to show you guys cos by then i will be a wet blanket. It's such a fuckin' puny matter and you wanna start a argument with me. Seriously? It's gonna be a decade that we've known each other. A DECADE - that's a fucking long period of time do you even realize that? Nowadays every single lil' thing that i've encountered is starting to piss me off, i do not know why. I'm really tired, school's starting and i have to stress about the money. It's gonna be a new year soon and i HATE owing others. It's not a small sum ok. Who's to blame? NO ONE BUT MYSELF. I really regretted ok. Fuck but thank god, this ol' diary of mine is here for me to pour out every single shit that i'm having right now. Fuck life, seriously. This year sucks big time. Everything is so god damned expensive in Singapore. I don't even know 2 tickets to night safari cost 100 bucks. 100 FUCKING BUCKS. I'll have to work my ass of for 3 days just to get that amount of money. I will be the quiet one the next time when we're hanging out. Starting from today i'm not gonna say much so you guys better 'automatic' abit. It's okay, i'm gonna keep it to myself and act as if nothing has ever fucking happened. You will see a different me i fucking swear. 我吃得下

2010-10-09T02:34:00.001+08:00

PLEASE

2010-10-06T00:44:00.006+08:00

"When someone don't love you like the way

you want them to, it doesn't mean that they

don't love you" - UNKNOWN

Ah, I'm weird

2010-10-04T03:05:00.003+08:00

Went to popular to get some books and Alvin got a "TOUGH VOCAB FOR O LEVEL" I swear that book sibei power hahahahaha. Did a few exercises and it was really TOUGH and all of us did one exercise each. None of us got full marks hahahah yeah our language is really terrible. 30th of Sept - went to Marina Bay Sands Hotel as Darren's aunt got us a room. It was funnnnnn i guessed but after awhile everyone's asleep so the only ones who are still alive are me and shaun. Talk and talk and talk till the sun rises. Caught 'The Other Guys' hahahahaha. Good movie unlike the other comedy films where you know what's gonna happen next but there are quite a number of parts where i didn't expect hahahahaha. I'm gonna watch date night as for now or should i sleep? Hmm, gonna decide later on. Any ways, goodnight dear diary and hopefully that dumbass wouldn't be nervous cos i'm pretty sure she's gonna do well hahahahaha. I sound like some autistic kid over here hehehehe well fuck, goodnight world :>

2010-10-02T01:03:00.003+08:00

There's always 2 side for a story, the Good & the so called 'Bad'. I dunno why i'm typing these rubbish at this point of time. Oh well, 2 more weeks and that's it :( But somehow i'm kinda looking forward to meet my bros in school! Gonna be a hectic one and i swear i'm gonna work on the next fucking holiday. Standard of living in Singapore is way too high............. Too bad, I wasn't born in a rich family but i don't care cos at the very end of the day, i know they are always there for me :) In the mean time, i'm gonna take a hiatus!

2010-09-28T15:40:00.002+08:00

oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
and i can tell you that i've been moving in so slow
don't let it throw you off so far
cos i'll be running right behind you
could this be out of line
could this be out of line
to say you're the only one
breaking me down like this
you're the only one i'll take a shot on
keep me hanging on
so contagiously
oh, whenever i'm around you i'm predictable
cos i believe in loving you in first sight
i know it's crazy but i'm hoping to
to take a hold of you
could this be out of line
could this be out of line
to say you're the only one
breaking me down like this
you're the only one i'll take a shot on
keep me hanging on
so contagiously
oh you're everything i wanted
come to think of it i'm aching
on account of my transgression
will you welcome this confession
could this be out of line
could this be out of line
to say you're the only one
breaking me down like this
you're the only one i'll take a shot on
keep me hanging on
so contagiously
could this be out of line
could this be out of line
to say you're the only one breaking me down like this
you're the only one i'll take a shot on
keep me hanging on
so contagiously

2010-09-27T01:28:00.002+08:00

So many movies i've yet to watch :\
Wall Street: Money Never Sleeps
Dinner for Schmucks
The Other Guys
Devil
Inception (I know I'm slow ok*)
Date Night (*)

Oh, i just recalled. Stranger than fiction was a good movie (cos Will Ferrel acted in it hehe) Plot was pretty good? I suppose. Goodnight world

2010-09-25T16:57:00.005+08:00

In my shoes just to see what it's like to be me

The only way i can differentiate between a weekday and weekend is when my mom is at home in the afternoon. I used to hate Saturdays and Sundays cos the people living at the opposite block used to have those singing session whereby it's fucking atrocious. So... the only way out is to not stay at home. However, it led to many arguments with my parents cos i'm always not at home. Looking back, i realized how moronic i was lol. Hm, i haven't been ranting out loud bout my life for long. I'm fucking scared right now cos I'm gonna be broke in a week's time. Yes, holidays. Parents not at home and there's no school, no one to hold you back. Smells like freedom, yeah! But nothing's fun without money, honestly speaking. Have you heard of 'Money makes the world go round'? Everything's failing on me now, what a good timing. Nevertheless, i'm gonna fucking find a job and buy all the fucking things that i NEED. On a happier note, i sincerely hope we are progressing much more rather than drifting away from each other. It's a peaceful afternoon, i'm going out to take a little breather

2010-09-22T22:35:00.002+08:00

Happy Lantern Festival! Wasn't fun at all unlike the previous years :| In fact, it was pathetic, literally. Everyone's busy with their life, studies, family and friends. *BIG SIGH* This clique is gonna fall out sooner or later... Any ways to get ulcers healed asap?

2010-09-20T03:48:00.000+08:00

Mixed feelings. 要就要, 不要就讲, 懂不懂?

2010-09-19T00:26:00.003+08:00

I'm really tired of these bullshits, really tired. Why can't you guys just give me a fuckin' break? It's times like these when i really got flared up but who wants to? Please, spare a fuckin' thought for me. I'm quite down for various reasons and you guys still go on and yadayada. Aiya fuck lah, tomorrow will be a fuckin' better day i swear.

2010-09-18T14:37:00.002+08:00

I am in misery. There ain't no others who can comfort me. Why aren't you answering me? Your silence is killing me. Girl you really got me bad, you really got me bad. I'm gonna get you back, gonna get you back

2010-09-16T02:17:00.002+08:00

I can smell freedom, so sweet but somehow i'm not looking forward to it. Everyone's busy with their studies :\ Oh well. Goodnight world

2010-09-13T01:18:00.003+08:00

Have to thank god that i'm still alive and kicking, my family & friends and lastly, you my sweetheart

2010-09-10T13:47:00.001+08:00

I fucking hate being alone. Arghhhhh yet another screwed up day

2010-09-03T02:23:00.001+08:00

Life sucks terribly, whoa thanks

2010-09-02T12:58:00.002+08:00

"I miss you dearly. hun"

It's things like these that got my world going round.

2010-08-31T11:42:00.002+08:00

I don't regret loving someone but falling for someone who don't feel the same way towards me. I must be out of my mind. Good day folks, have an enjoyable day

2010-08-19T14:14:00.001+08:00

I have been saving these last words for one last miracle
but now i'm not sure
i can't save you if you don't let me
you just get me like i never been gotten before
oh like i never been gotten before
yeah yeah like i never been gotten before...

2010-08-13T14:38:00.003+08:00

i've got the sudden urge to blog but i'm totally clueless on what to write. Okay... My bro just went back to his camp and my house is so quiet again. It's damn ridiculous why i don't talk to my bro as much when we're younger and now, it's like so embarrassing to chat with him. Hmm, i do envy how close danny and dylan are although they are always fighting, ranting 'bout each other and yadayada. Tv shows are super boring and i'm only left with my baby vaio. Done with animes, manga, the movie i've just downloaded isn't working. Fuckkkkkkkkk. Friends are always busy with something but i'm so glad that even though they are, they'd still fork out the time to meet me up :> It's gonna rain soon and i, fucking, hate, it. Many people might say i'm weird but i luv the sun. The warmth is just so awesome but... Never mind. Here comes the next challenger, money! Yay! I'm left with 200 bucks to last till the next month yay! (which means 22 more days) I just came out with a plan and i hope it works or it's gonna be just like last month (living hell plz) What da fuck. I seriously can't stand it when your friends just chucked you aside. Zzzz fuck.

2010-08-11T13:18:00.003+08:00

It comes to a point where everything to you is just so tiring. Things don't go your way and boom, comes another problem which makes you sleepless for the entire night. That feeling is horrendous. Whenever i'm crestfallen, i go to sleep. It does help a LITTLE but in the end, you start thinking all over again and you get annoyed. I don't know what to do anymore. I know being understanding plays a fuckin' important part but... Whatever. Gotta prepare or I'm gonna be late again =S

2010-07-06T00:12:00.002+08:00

FUCK 5TH OF JULY. FUCKING SUAY DAY @%^)$#@#$%^&8134 THIS MONTH I'M FUCKING BROKE, I FUCKING LOST MY THUMBDRIVE WHICH CONSISTS MANY FUCKING IMPORTANT STUFFS, THERE ARE FUCKING LOTS OF PROJECTS, I FUCKING TORE MY TRANSPARENCY PAPER TWICE, MY BANK FUCKING LEFT 10 BUCKS I CAN'T TOP UP MY EZLINK, I HAVE TO FUCKING WAKE UP EARLY IN THE MORNING HOPEFULLY TO FIND MY FUCKING THUMBDRIVE, I HAVE TO HAND IN MY FUCKING MOUNTING BOARDS BY 3PM WHICH I DON'T HAVE THE PHOTOS NOW I FUCKING HATE THIS BULLSHIT, SERIOUSLY KMNNKNAKNAQ13IJG0HJ13H-92JH-P921JH

2010-06-26T00:50:00.001+08:00

MY HEAD FUCKING HURTS.
EVER HEARD OF QING CAI SHANG GAN QING? HAHAHA WHEN I WAS YOUNG I NEVER BELIEVED IT. SO TRUE, FUCK YOU MOTHERFUCKERS LIKE SERIOUSLY. FUCKING 5 BUCKS AND YOU GUYS CANT FUCKING AFFORD __________||||||||__________

2010-06-24T13:57:00.002+08:00

slide away and give it all you've got
my today felling from the top
i dream of you and all the things you said
i wonder where you are now
hold me now cos all the world's asleep
i need you now, you knock me off my feet
i dream of you and we talked bout growing old
but you said please don't
slide in baby, together we'll fly
i tried praying but i don't know what you're saying to me
now that you're mine, we'll find a way
of chasing the sun
so lemme be the one that shines with you
in the morning we don't know what to do
we're two of a kind, we'll find a way to do what we've done
oh so lemme be the one that shines with you and we can slide away
don't know, don't care, all i know is you can take me there
i don't know
i don't care
all i know is you can take me there
slide away slide away slide away

2010-06-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i cant help but to think that life is simply meaningless. All we do is to study, get into a good university, get a degree, get a highly paid job and you pretty much don't have to worry about your life later on. On the other hand, there are people who refused to study, they go out and party till there's no tomorrow, wake up and repeat. Isn't that just meaningless... Everyday you do the same ol' shit, go to sleep and wake up - the same ol' shit again. Why is this society so competitive that everyone has to study so hard just to get a stable job? I wanna go hiking, travel around the world and taste all the delicacies, diving (woohoo), bungee jumping, catching lobsters, take an airplane (i know i'm suaku :\) and lastly, get a ship and travel to all the ocean. But looking at the current situation, i think it's totally impossible hahahaha, Wait till i have the kachingz, ciao

2010-06-16T00:53:00.003+08:00

Thanks for all you've done
I missed for so long
I cant believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly
I never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cos you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
I'll come home and i miss your face
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes and see and you're gone
You are part of me
I miss your song
It sets me free
I sing it loud
Feel like i cant hold on
I sing tonight cos it comforts me

sometimes, somethings don't deserve you at best

2010-06-06T23:49:00.002+08:00

Haven't really touched this blog for a long time. I always have this urge of opening a chalet cos i realised everyone's pretty busy right now :\ The main objective of opening a chalet is to have........ FUN! But then again, what I'm really looking forward to is all my brothers gathering around and having fun is a tiny room. Wrestling, jokes, gambling, laughing at each others stupidity till everyone cracks in their own pants and yummy food, i mean the bbq. Wait till the night, everyone gets tired and fucked up pranks come hahhahah but nevertheless, i luv this kind of moments. O I'M GONNA BOOK IT SOON! (HOPEFULLY)

i've got a gift of one liners
and you've got the curse of curves
and with this gift
i compose words and the question that comes forward
are you perspiring from the irony
or are you sweating to the lyrics
this is just in
you're a dead fit
but my wit, wont allow it
the inside lingo had me at hello
we go where the money goes
the inside lingo had me at hello
we go where the money goes
i want someone provocative and talkative
but its so hard when you're shallow as a shower
from what i heard with wit you'll win

2010-05-28T00:51:00.002+08:00

I wonder what's wrong with the society nowadays. Fancy them beating the living shit out the cats till it's bleeding and it's fucking blind. Seriously, it's pretty fucked up. I was slacking at some void deck with my friends and i happened to see this cat. I went to pet this cat and its eyes were actually bleeding and for fuck sake, it's actually blind. It was so paranoid that when i was petting it, it actually tried to runaway but it couldn't run far (I think it suffered from some bad injuries) Finally, it got pretty calm and it was actually... crying. I really felt my heart aching. Okay i will describe how it was - Its eyes were really HUGE, as if somebody just put contact lens on it, or rather someone try to gouge it out. It was crying, nose were bleeding, the spine was slightly crooked (oh god) and it was FUCKING BLIND. We tried to wipe the blood off but it wouldn't let us do so :\ Went to get drinks and when we returned, it was gone. I sincerely hope the aunties @ ds's block will take care of it. If we ever know who the fuck did that shit, WE WILL MAKE YOU BLEED

2010-05-09T00:29:00.002+08:00

I fucking hate doing group projects. I prefer doing individual works as i don't have to take other people's fucked up comments and it's gonna fucking be the way that i'm gonna do it. Fuck this shit

2010-05-05T01:02:00.003+08:00

I'm so into Post-Hardcore recently. Maybe it's because of the headbanging & screamings woohoo. I shall download more then!

DON'T TURN YOUR EYES IF YOU LEAVE NOW, YOU WON'T REMEMBER ME

2010-05-03T01:30:00.001+08:00

Whoa, Taylor Swift is super gorgeous and talented omg

2010-04-28T23:36:00.002+08:00

and i thought we could fall asleep in each others arms

i see no point in blogging at all... Cos I'm going through the same ol' shit everyday. School was awesome, except for the money... I spent like 400 bucks in just half a month. W.t.f I really hope i can still keep the remaining money in my bank for further uses and i wanted to get a new phone as mine is getting a lil' bit fucked up in it. Fuck, I have to get a job asap cos my money is flowing out too easily. Top up card, bus fares, food, project materials... Broke *makes a gun sign with my hand and aim it at my head* poooooof

2010-04-22T23:50:00.002+08:00

I typed a whole chunk of words but i deleted them anyway cos i find them rather offensive :\ I find it super boggling when kids go around saying they wanna leave their home. What for getting yourself troubles when all you need to do is to study? Okay I don't wanna talk much cos it'd be a bias view. School was rather, whoa. Yeah man starting of the week, the lectures are more laid back but once it reaches the third or fourth week the stress is gonna kick in. It is the first week of the semester and it seems like hell... How am i gonna survive for the following 3 years :\ HAHAHA i helped dy to tattoo (with my pen) and i drew a dick HAHAHA. I don't feel guilty bout it though. Goodnight world, i have school @ 9am. It's gonna be a good day tomorrow!

2010-04-21T00:35:00.002+08:00

On this memorable day, I wanna tell the world that I have lessons starting from 9 till 3pm. Gan pua sian ): School wasn't great at all (except for the breaks with my so called 'comfort-zone' as for now) as I don't recall many simple things for Maths and worse case, I wasn't even paying much attention for the first lesson :\ Oh well, I guess I have to be more attentive as from today ;) I luv my bros - they are always there for me no matter what and my dear parents. God bless them.

2010-04-15T14:54:00.003+08:00

School is starting next week. I hope itd be fun cos I am gonna spend the 3 next years in that school but ultimately, I have to get my mindset right. If I were to go to school with a fucked up thinking then most prolly school's gonna suck big time. Caught Kick-Ass. The show was... awesome. IMO i think its even better than Clash of the titans LOL. A MUST watch movie! The action was... whoa, whacko. I'm gonna watch it again if funshion comes out this movie hahahha. The most memorable part was when Mindy turned off all the lights and started a massacre, super imba. Good show ~

2010-04-12T00:34:00.002+08:00

Fucked up days. I've been sick for the past week and it feels good to wake up in the morning, rather than in the late afternoon. I realised that I am the only one in the family born during April while others were born in the month of October. Besides, I am the only one with the blood type 'O' while all of them have AB i think. Haha funny shitz I think I have to turn in early (now) cos I'm kinda drowsy after consuming the medicines :\ Nights world

2010-04-04T01:30:00.002+08:00

Lulz i just got caught sneaking out of the house, awww. Guess i can't do that too often, or maybe even not going out in the middle of the night :\ I got a little afraid of small creatures like hamsters and etc cos they are kinda... creepy to me lol. Goonight

2010-04-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

TML TML TML GOGOGO 3D 3D 3D. My classmates were... still fine HAHA GOODNIGHT

2010-03-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

"EH CAN DON'T SO BUAY BAH THANKS"

2010-03-29T15:50:00.002+08:00

I didn't realise how insignificant i was to you.

Orientation tomorrow. Damn, i don't feel like attending at all but it's compulsory. 3 fucking days, how am i gonna survive? Oh, the highly anticipated show 'Clash of the Titans' is coming out this Thursday. I can't wait i can't wait and cycling on Friday woohoo. Few days back or rather yesterday, we cycled to Jalan Kayu. Whoa, it's been such a long time since we cycled there. Nevertheless, the prata there was awesome. The annoying part was that the front and back brakes are all spoilt :\ Sigh, wait for jim to wake up and I'm going to have spaghetti!

2010-03-28T02:40:00.003+08:00

Gan pua sian. I'm really bored. Woke up at like, 3 > cut hair > buddy hoagies > bbq > slack > home. I regretted telling the hairstylist that i wanted to cut this particular hairstyle and now... ... blank :) I hope Desmond or GW lends me their ps3 cos i wanna wanna play final fantasy 13! Come to think of it, i only had proper meal which is the ramen that my mom bought in the noons. The stingray @ the bbq was... beyond description omg it's super sweet and nice. I thought that the cake was nice too cos it was a chocolate cake! I wanted to book chalet initially but i don't think anyone would be able to make it............ Everyone's still having their school while my school starts on 19th of April. Most probably BBQ (again) on weekend so everybody can ton woohoo. I got a little bit sian of BBQ already HAHA. It's been a long time since i celebrated my birthday with my friends, about 3, 4 years i think. Every year is the same ol' shit where....
ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ : Hey, let's catch a movie at night
Me : Sure.
ABCJASIJFOIAJSD: How 'bout swimming?
Me : Can.
AIJFOIAJSF FKAOKF : After swimming then watch movie?
Me : Okay.
AFIJAOIJOIB + IASJFOIASJF + ABCDEDAAOJ : Later we call you again.
Me : (slept and waited at home till 6pm, reaching 7 and no one called)
Me : Eh Jim wanna go down and slack?
Jim : Okay, i get you something.
*went down and slack for awhile and went home*
Every year :\ The only time i celebrated birthday was sec......... i forgot, where me and others went to seoul garden for lunch, ran away and didn't pay the bill. Whoa, epic, not. Talk so much cock, just another ordinary day where you get older only. But i hoped this year it's gonna be a better one ><