It's kinda sweet to see couples all around, loving each other wholeheartedly and etc etc. Hahahaha yeah i'm so fuckin' jealous. Still, it reminds me of the MV of Build To Last - Meelee ;)

I have this thought that (correct me if i'm wrong) money really does make a person happy (for me personally though). Wait, i can't really put it in this manner cos', okay what i meant was it really makes a person's living so much easier. Having a car, bringing your wife/family out for a dinner at some well known restaurants or even excursions. Having good meals, not giving a fuck about the bills, kids and wife buy whatever they want (but moderation please). Wonderful, isn't it?

Okay okay, i'm just bullshitting around. To be honest, i'm really envious of those boys who are rich, have cars to bring their girlfriends around, bring them to some good restaurant to have good meals, pay for whatever they want and so much more. Yeah yeah i know, everyone says these cliche lines over and over again - "Those little handmade stuffs meant much more", "It's the thought that counts." I know i know, but still it makes the living so much easier, right? I swear when i grow up, I'm gonna give a comfortable life to my parents and my kids as well.

Well..... It wasn't such a bad thing cos' all the more I'm gonna be more independent hahaha.

Reality check... I'm a week away from 18 and i'm so excited (Not 'bout the celebration but the bike hehehe) I think imma fucking failure, seriously. 18, not studying well just to repay my parents and being sucha' disobedient kid all the time. Not handsome, not rich, not buffed, not a good person, not even able to support myself, has literally nothing, spendthrift. I've really got a crippling low self esteem issue but oh well, i'm here to pour out whatever is stuck in my weak heart.

Sigh, goodnight world.